Day 1

So, day 1.
I was woken y, my husband, a bit earlier than I usually get out of bed. I have trouble falling asleep so I sleep long into the next day and I want to change that.

I went with my husband to the gym this morning and did my stretches and then I walked home. It’s about 9 km home and a lot of hills, so it took a while.

A short while after we came home we got a visit from a friend from work and that was really nice. I have not been so social the last couple of months but I do enjoy a visit once in a while.

Now I’m fixing dinner, salad, tofu and tomatoes from the garden.
Today’s weight: 25kg to go
Today’s mood: A bit stressed before the visit, otherwise good
Today’s workout: 9km Walk

New start

Last fall I hit the wall. My sick leave started in October, I think, and I started working in January again. A couple of weeks later I had a doctors appointment and I told her that I felt depression coming on, something I’ve had before. I started taking antidepressants and all hell broke loose.
It started with me feeling worse and worse and then I got suicidal thoughts. I didn´t go through with any attempts and the thought that kept me from doing anything was that my husband probably would be sad. When I instead started thinking that it would be better for everyone else if I died we went to the psych emergency and they had me admitted.
I was in the hospital for three weeks and the doctors raised my antidepressants to the max. Everything went worse and I got more and more suicide thoughts.
When I got out I got in contact with an amazing doctor that told me to stop taking those pills and she gave me another kind. I had been on those before but my weight went through the rough so I wasn’t too keen on taking those. I was on them for a while but they didn’t make me feel better. I put on 10 kilos in a couple of weeks though… not only because of the pills but from increased appetite, no energy to move and a lot of candy and such. after I stopped taking the pills I still kept eating and my weight kept rising.
I still have dark thoughts, but not as often. When they come they are more a wish that I was dead, not a thought that I want to kill myself.
I don’t have that much energy, but I don’t feel that I’m drained of energy all the time. Because of that, I will now start my weightloss journey. yey…
Here, I will vent my thoughts and write about my ups and downs.
My goals are to lose weight, get stronger and become happier.

Back at it again

After some time with family issues, and with that, priorities that were far from training and diet, I am now back in business (i hope =))

Have gained some weight as well as lose some strength due to the last couple of months. But nothing that is beyond repair.

I have begun a rather strict weight loss period to get myself into decent shape as quick as possible.

I also have created a new training schedule that focus more on strength than cardio.
I have some hopes that i for the first time in my life actually is going to follow the schedule that i have created.

Another first will be that i will respect the deload weeks which i plan to have every fourth week at least for the first couple of months.

I will try to post a daily update with both my work out sessions, calories and macros and a update for my weight.

We’ll see how it will progress.

Today i weigh in at 87.4kg (started at approx 90kg a couple of weeks back.

Yesterdays Macros:
Kcal: 1637
Protein: 206g
Carbs: 31g
Fat: 43g
(as mentioned, rather strict and low calorie, but the day before was about 2200 so i dont eat like this everyday, average around 1800-1900 on weekdays, and have some refeed days at the weekend so over the whole week i think i will average 2100, which should be 500-800 kcal under my maintanance)

Yesterdays Workouts:
Easy morning jog. 3,5km (21 min)
Lunch walk: 2km (20 min)
Afternoon jog with wife and dog: 2.5km (20min)
Walk 2.5km (30-40min)

This morning i did a Gym workout, but i will report that one together with todays macros in tomorrows post.

Non-tooth ache.

Training has really been suffering as of late. Had my rearmost molar (wisdom tooth??) surgically removed and have not been able to sleep properly or eat in a couple of day (praise protein shakes).

Back at the gym this morning and of course i felt kinda week. But anyhow, the workout is now done and pretty soon i probably will be back in action (or maybe i should say strength).

Nothing to see here

Yesterday i had a pretty good squat and overhead press session.

Everything felt fine.

Today it did som bench (130kg was rather easy this morning and finished of with some leg curl and seated rows.

Everything goes according to plan. But i have a sore knee that worry me some. It feels nothing during workouts but starts to ache at random times when i do some movements. Hope it goes away by it self. Not planning to do anything more advanced than some stretches for now. The feeling is very close to what i experienced when i had my runner knee issues. But on the right knee this time. And definitly not caused by running 😉

Weekend powerliftee

Saturday

Bench

Squats

Sunday

Deadlift

Overhead press

A good weekend PR in both bench and OHP.

Season best in deadlift. Overall some good workouts.

in addition to the powerlifts i did some extra assistance exercises (chins/curls/leg extentions/triceps)

Chest Workout

On Wednesday me and my hubby did a killer chest work out. I don’t have any soreness today and I’m a bit surprised by that…

Bench Press

Set 1: 20 kg × 15

Set 2: 20 kg × 15

Set 3: 20 kg × 15

Set 4: 50 kg × 1

Set 5: 55 kg × 1

Set 6: 57,5 kg × 1

Set 7: 57,5 kg × 1

Set 8: 55 kg × 1

Set 9: 55 kg × 1

Set 10: 52,5 kg × 2

Set 11: 52,5 kg × 2

Set 12: 50 kg × 3

Set 13: 50 kg × 3

Set 14: 45 kg × 5

Set 15: 45 kg × 5

Set 16: 45 kg × 5

Set 17: 45 kg × 5

Set 18: 45 kg × 5

Tatas

Yesterday I had a short 20 min lunch work out. Focus on static training for chest/shoulders and core.
this morning we did a nice long and hard benchsession.

Wifey succusfully conpleteed her first pyramid set. And set her 1RM for now.

I started with some squat technique training. And after that it was all bench.

1×20 @20kg
1×10 @30kg
1×10 @40kg
1×10 @50kg
1×8 @70kg
1×3 @90kg
1×1 @100kg
1×1 @110kg
1×1 @120kg
1×0 @125kg (everything went wrong..)
1×1 @120kg
1×1 @120kg
1×3 @115kg (PR)
1×3 @115kg
1×4 @110kg (PR)
1×4 @110kg
1×6 @105kg (PR)
1×6 @105kg
1×5 @105kg
1×5 @105kg
1×5 @105kg

Nice with 3 personal rep records.
Rest day tomorrow feels rather needed. maybe i will go for a slow jog on my lunchbreak. But no strength training.